Can you have two feeling for 2 boys ? help?

like for the first one i like him it just start to feel this felling like he says cute stuff and make me smile and he say cute stuff but with the other boy is like a bad Romans like he fight with me and then he left and i when to tell him i love him and need him cuz i miss him and see him in my dreams i hate him and love him and fight but when i am about to lose him i run for him ?? help